Came back from Bangkok. Miss Charlene sooooo much during my trip.

Bought so many clothes for Charlene until Papa also cannot tahan me..... hehee..... looking at babies there make me miss you even more, wondering how are u, wat are u doing, are u happy staying wif Bobo and ah Ma, do u miss Mummy........ cos mummy miss u. I can only look at your picture on my handphone. Mummy called back everyday to check on you and Bobo making sure that u are alright and trying to catch the slightest sound you make....

Bangkok has so many nice n cute baby clothes, not to mention cheap. Trying to find baby accessories for u, but seems like all are clothings

U came to pick Daddy and Mummy up from the airport with Ah Gong, Ah Ma, Gugu and Darren Gorgor.....
Mummy is so happy to see u. You seem to have grown so much during these 5 days, of cos yr botak hair too.... U smiled at me when i talk to you, and u laugh to Papa....

Was feeding you wif your nite feed and was surprised that you actually held your milk bottle, but of cos only for awhile. So clever....... hehe and naughty Papa let you sit down alone on the sofa, u fell on it and cried. Mummy know u are 'scolding' him right? hehe...

Bobo is in hospital cos her wound might be infected and you have to stay with Ah Ma and Darren Gorgor.... Mummy is worry whether they will show more attention to Gorgor and neglect you or that Darren will bully you.... but mummy know u will defend yourself.... *SCRATCH* anyone who bullies you baby! hehe......

Mummy will need to visit Bobo in the hospital after work and will rush home to see u ok....

Mummy's E-Diary

Has mixed feelings during my trip at Bangkok. This is a reward trip given by my hubby to me for giving birth to Charlene. Before going there, Im feeling excited and looking forward to it. But at the same time, I know I will miss Charlene and I am thinking why am I going to have fun while my poor Mum have to look after Charlene. I felt selfish at times. Friends told me to just enjoy and buy more gifts for mum then.

Actually my mum is not feeling very well during the week when Im away to Bangkok. She has fever but seems to recover on Wednesday. I kept on 'blaming' her for not taking care of herself cos she has been playing mahjong till 4am on tat weekend. I know she felt very bad too and me.... I felt so guilty blaming her again n again. I think I should be the one to be blamed, for not looking after her well enough after her operation.

Now she's been admitted to the hospital again. She had giddy spells and felt feverish once again. She went to the hospital on Sunday herself while Im in Bangkok. I just felt so sad for her..... where are her family!? while Im enjoying myself in Bangkok.........My heart pains.... Was eating sharksfin and shopping in Bangkok while my mum's suffering????? I think Im not good enough to be her daugther, I always tell myself to treat her nice but is always not so. And since now Im having Charlene, Im even more busier.... am I neglecting her?

We have all taken her for granted...

I felt sinned and on the other hand really thank God that he has given me the greatest mum in the World. Let's pray that Bobo will get well soon...

We chinese are not good in expressing ourselves, and me too.... so I could only write in my E-Dairy that :' I LOVE YOU , MUM & THANKS FOR GIVING ME SO MUCH'. Hopefully one day, I can say that in her face.....